the 111 experience of J’lahn [Version 53.112]
Copyright Jim Ward-Nichols 1989-2017 - All Rights Reserved
My connections to/with 111 & 11:11 began in the mid-1960s. The material found below details these connections.
The Final Revision to "the 111 experience" (the chronology) was published on 11-1-2000.
Links That Matter & Other Items of Interest are updated on an as-needed basis.
Last revised: January 11, 2017
Links That Matter & Other Items of Interest:
The Official US Time
The New Jersey Herald
The Smoking Gun
The Washington Post
The Jerusalem Post
National Public Radio
TV Station Web Directory
CIA World Factbook
American Community Survey
SuperPages People Pages Search
Bill Gates' Web Site
Debt to the Penny and Who Holds It
Broadband Speed Tests and Tools
The Wacky Packages Website
The Topps Vault
Interactive Tree of Life
The Lesser Key of Solomon
Internet Sacred Text Archive
Robert Anton Wilson
Green Party of the United States
PETA - People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals
Brian Greene & The Elegant Universe
Latest Nielsen Ratings
The Internet Movie Database
Days of Our Lives (official NBC site)
"THERE'S NO PLACE LIKE TABOR LAKE" (the web tribute to my childhood summer home at Tabor Lake, New Jersey, USA)
Beyond the Chronology - additional material published after 11-1-2000:
The 911 Tragedy: My 1:11 NYC Skyline Is Gone [END 111] (added September 19, 2001)
the Three Keys of Jala*AN - Part ONE [V16.2] (updated January 11, 2007)
Beyond the II_III_II SHADOW PUPPETS [V1.1] (added July 11, 2004)
ALL_ELEVEN (||||_|||_||||) & Other Recent Visions (added August 1, 2004)
the 11:11 Cipher of Patient ZERO [V5.1] (updated November 3, 2004)
CipherClues - The True Meaning of 11:11 (updated January 21, 2011)
Happy Earth Day 2005 (updated April 21, 2007)
Our Alien Ancestry (added June 28, 2005)
Under the Three Keys Hood - Part I (added June 28, 2005)
Under the Three Keys Hood - Part IIa (added June 28, 2005)
Under the Three Keys Hood - Part IIb (added June 28, 2005)
Halliday and Resnick FINALLY Say "Curiously" (added June 28, 2005)
Why Shadow Puppets? (added June 28, 2005)
For 1/11: Essential Artifacts (added January 11, 2006)
End_111 & The New Freedoms (added April 7, 2006)
666 - The Number's Pre-Rev. 13:18 Roots (added October 1, 2006)
Time is Three Eyes & Eight Elbows (added October 1, 2006)
The Roots Go Deep (updated October 11, 2009)
New Trinity Dawn - The Script's Resurrection (updated February 7, 2017)
The Ancient LiveJournal Blog Archive Bonus! (updated August 30, 2017)
"the 111 experience" (the
This is the chronology of my experiences with the number patterns One Eleven (111) and Eleven-Eleven (11:11). It documents my earliest experiences with 111 (CE 1965) and 11:11 (CE 1968) through 11-1-2000. If there are any questions regarding this work, of if you find your own Special Pattern on the current version of The Big List (11/111/x11/1111/111x, 112, 137, 22/222/2222, 3/33/333, 316, 318, 37, 42/420, 44/44x/444, 47/x47, 53, 55/555, 666, 69, 7/77/777, 13/42, 23/32, 88/888, 1212, 1234, 1432), feel free to contact me through e-mail at email@example.com.
BACKGROUND: WHO IS J'LAHN? J'lahn
is a name that came to me during an early summer night in late June, 1988 while
I was living in Boulder, Colorado . It was
an intense night, a night of heightened energy, and a night of heightened
thought. In my dream state I felt that, for some reason, there were two very
powerful beings down near Denver and that somehow I was connected to
them. I sensed that they were WALKING to Boulder to meet me. The
main Highway is a state road called 36. At any rate, in this lucid dream
I knew that I needed to start walking to Denver down 36 and that I would meet
them somewhere in the middle. So in the dream, I began my trek down 36. While I
was walking, I imagined that we (the three of us) were communicating with each
other telepathically. These two beings (they may have been women) referred to
me by something that sounded like JAH-LON (I may have told them that this is
what they should call me - I don't really remember who used the name
first). I awoke from this deep dream state before I actually met the two.
From that moment on, I felt that my INNER CORE BEING was, somehow, named J'lahn. I chose
the "J apostrophe" spelling because that seemed most fitting.
So that's how the name J'lahn became meaningful to me
and that's how it came to represent my innermost self - it was all from an
incredibly lucid dream I had way back in 1988.
1965 - The Beginning
When I was three years old, I was recorded singing "Old Macdonald" and "Jesus Loves Me" by my grandfather, The Rev. L. F. Nichols . The recording was made on a SCOTCH reel-to-reel magnetic tape (model number 111-12). The flat, reel-to-reel style tape box cover displays a large, white 111 on top of a red and black checkered background. The tapes were discovered in a box of memorabilia during the summer of 1988 while moving from my childhood home.
1968 - The First 11:11 Connection
I used to draw racing cars all the time when I was a little kid. I think that I started putting numbers on them after an outing to the "Stock Car" races up in Middletown, NY. The drawing you'll see here is from 1968 when I was just 6 years old and represents the very first evidence of a connection to Two Elevens (known today, of course, as 11:11).
1976 - The Random ID Assignment
I was assigned an ID number of ‘01110’ in the computer systems of the newly opened regional high school . I didn't connect this to "the 111 experience" until the summer of 1980.
July 29, 1978 - The Last Issue of Tabor Lake's THE COURIER
I spent every summer of my childhood at a place called Tabor Lake in northern New Jersey. Two of my friends (they were brothers, actually) and I published THE COURIER , a small "magazine" telling all about the people, places, and things of Tabor Lake. The Last Issue's cover (#11) showed the cover of the "Preview Issue" (#1) with the caption: "OUR FIRST ISSUE - 1974".
1980 through 1983 - The Early 111/11:11 Synchronicities
In the summer of 1980, I worked at the local newspaper delivering papers to people who didn't get their papers and carriers that were shorted. I spent a good deal of time in the car and found that I began to see 111 imbedded in the numbers on the odometer and tripometer at least once a day. The first few times it happened, it didn't seem odd, but the problem was that it kept happening. Somehow I would look at the mileage indicators just as they had turned to 111.
I then got a couple of addresses to deliver papers to that had 111 as a part of the address. Now I was starting to get a little spooked. At this point, the experience I was having was very private - I hadn't told a soul. I approached a woman at the newspaper who was into numerology and astrology and asked her what it meant if someone kept seeing the same number all the time. She said "I don't know, but I keep seeing 222 all the time and it's really starting to piss me off !!!"
I thought I was dreaming. How could she be saying this? I hadn't told anyone about my experience until that moment. I said "You're not gonna believe this, but I was going to ask you why I keep seeing 111 all the time!" We were both a little scared by this. The probability that we would both be having such a similar strange experience seemed very low. At that moment, I began to think that I was experiencing something paranormal - something that could not be explained with conventional scientific tools.
The rest of the summer was spent trying to deal with 111 whenever it would come up and trying to remain calm about the whole thing. It showed up in the running time of THE OMEN (111 minutes). This was also when I realized that my high school ID had 111 embedded in it . I wondered if I was going crazy. I thought that maybe I was experiencing some kind of paranormal premonition. Was I sensing the coming of World War III (World War One-One-One)?
Toward the end of the summer, I had another idea. Was 111 a numeric symbol of the Christian Trinity or Trinities in general? A month before my Grandfather Nichols died, he told me that the next time he saw me he would tell me the secret of how he kept his faith. He died before he told me the secret. Was he giving me a sign from the beyond? I kept seeing 111 and continued to resist categorizing it.
The next major event came in September, 1980 during my freshman year of college . At this point I had begun to share the details of my experience with my closest friends and family. Some of them reported that they started noticing 111 only after I had mentioned it to them. They also reported to me that they started seeing 11:11 on the clock after I brought 111 to their attention. I hadn't been seeing 11:11 but I did find these reports very interesting. I was mostly seeing 111 on digital clocks at this point - meaning that it would be 1:11 or it would turn to 1:11 just as I looked at the clock.
My friends in college (who were all studying to be some kind of scientist or engineer) wanted to help me debunk this. The theory was this: choose ANY number at all, make a mental note of it, and then it will start coming up all over the place. We took my TI-55 calculator and used the random number generator on it to select a random number between 1 and 600. We thought it might give us something that looked like a time. It didn't. We got 37. We thought "37’s a prime number, seems odd enough, let's see if it starts to come up." And for me, it did - mostly on cash registers (in prices and change) and in numbers that would come up in my various labs and classes. As a prank, we all helped paint a big 37 on the statue in the middle of campus.
Then one Saturday a few weeks later I was playing around with the numbers in a homework problem and realized that 37 was a close relative of my number. 37 + 37 + 37 = 111! Why should a random number that we generated on a calculator have ANY connection to 111?
Starting in 1982, I began to take special note of several different days during the calendar year. They were January 11th (1-11), November 1st - All Saints' Day (11-1) and April 21st (111th day of the year) . These became my own special holidays. Others who knew about this would actually take the time to say "Happy One Eleven, Jim."
In February 1982 I was with my Grandmother for my yearly trip to Florida. I was at a mall and was looking at a map of the facility. I saw that store number 111 was called Pop-Tops. That sounded interesting. It turned out to be a T-shirt store so I decided I would buy an orange T-shirt with three bright purple ones on it. That night I stood on the beach wearing my new T-shirt and kept repeating the phrase "What is the meaning of 111?" over and over and over. Right after the last time that I asked, a shooting star sailed brilliantly across the clear night sky. A chill ran up my spine. Was I making all this up or was I experiencing something completely paranormal? Was it a symbol for some sort of Trinity?
1987 through 1988 - Boulder and Sedona
I stopped seeing 111 all the time in late 1983. It had become an integral part of my life at this point (all my close friends and family were aware of my association with the number) but I had stopped seeing it on a regular basis. I had graduated from college and had been working as a data processing professional for three years. I was on vacation in Boulder during the summer of 1987 visiting a friend of mine from college. I immediately fell in love with the town. The most striking thing about Boulder is that it is right up against the Front Range of the Rocky Mountains. Right there, in plain view of the entire town, were the Flatirons. The Flatirons are a collection of huge slabs that people go climbing and hiking on.
There are three main slabs. The Flatirons seemed like a huge 111 looking out across the town. My friend Marty agreed. He was one of my friends in college who had tried to debunk 111 nearly seven years earlier. We felt that, once again, 111 was staring us right in the face. This was also right around the time of the Harmonic Convergence - that event added another mystical layer to my Summer of '87 vacation.
I had such an intense vacation that I decided to leave New Jersey and move to Boulder for a break from the hectic pace. I spent nine months in Boulder - living, working, and playing. It was very relaxing. In late June of 1988 I moved to Sedona, Arizona . I had never been there before but had heard that many people on spiritual quests were beginning to gather there. I figured that if anyone was seeing the same thing I was, surely they would be in Sedona. I got networked in with the hip crowd in town very quickly through my housemates.
Although everyone found my 111 connection interesting, nobody was having the same experience. I found a book in a town near Sedona, though, that really made quite an impact on me. It was called "777" by Aleister Crowley. In it, there were several direct references to 111. It referred to 111 as a symbol of the Trinity and the "Trinitarian Equation 3 = 1". I thought this was a pretty amazing discovery - it was July 1988 about a week after the Fourth of July. I had finally discovered a reference to 111 that pre-dated my own experience with the number.
January 10, 1992 - Finding Out About Solara
and the Star-Borne
Again there was a lull. That lull lasted until January 10th, 1992. That evening I discovered there was a group of people who were going to celebrate 1-11. I thought, "Hey, that's MY day!" They called this event the Eleven Eleven (11:11). That's right - the 11:11! My search eventually led me to an organization called Star-Borne Unlimited and a woman named Solara who had coordinated this world-wide event. I had foreseen that January 11, 1992 would be extra special many years prior to it actually arriving. I knew that 19+92 = 111 and that on January 11, 1992 the date would be (numerologically) 111-111, or 3-3. I also knew that 33 had great meaning to many different branches of Western Mysticism. I thought it was rather interesting that a date I had begun to see as special way back in 1982 (see above) had been chosen by others for an event that took place in 1992.
1994 through 1995 - Continued Revelations
There is a reference to 111 in Book I of The Lord of the Rings. This was pointed out to me in early 1994. There is a birthday party being held and one of the characters is turning "eleventy-one, 111, a rather curious number..."
Woodstock ‘94 - For the entire three days of the festival I carried a large sign that depicted my representation of "Three Things and then Four Things". This showed three large black rectangles - the one right in the middle was slightly raised and the other two on either side of it were at the same level. Then there were two other black rectangles on either side of the three in the middle. When someone asked me what it was I told them: "It's 111 in the middle and 1111 on the sides. It's a representation of ALL SEVEN. " I'm not sure exactly what year this representation started to mean something to me. I connected with quite a few people at Woodstock who were seeing various number patterns. The most amazing one was a woman from Detroit who was wearing a T-shirt that said "Genesis 1:11". 111 was her lucky number and January 11th was her birthday. We both felt that this was a most amazing connection.
By this time I had also realized the connection between 7 and 111. 111 is the binary numeric representation of 7. 1111 is the hexadecimal representation of F, the last character of the hexadecimal character set. Also, in the early days of computers, a "1" quite literally meant that the ON/OFF switch was "ON". So 111 could also be seen as ON ON ON, which is obviously VERY similar to One-One-One. I also began to think of the ALL SEVEN representation as the self in the middle, the parents on either side (that's the 111 in the middle). And then the two ones on either side of the middle 111 represent the grandparents of the self - the genetic source material for each parent of the self.
A co-worker and I discovered that we had 111 "in common". He saw it all the time from 1985 through 1990. We were absolutely amazed.
During this period of time, I met many people who felt some sort of connection to AT LEAST ONE of the following number patterns: 11/111/x11/1111, 112, 22/222, 3/33/333, 316, 37, 44/44x/444, 47/x47, 53, 55/555, 666, 69, 7/77/777, 13/42, 23/32, 88/888, 1234, and 1212. For quite a while this list expanded almost every month. Early in the year 2000, I added 44x for a woman and her ex-husband who have always had a strong connection to the number 442. Previously, I had not added any new patterns to the list in about 3 years.
1996 - THE QABALA Reveals
I started seeing many connections between The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn , all things Masonic , other Egyptian Mystery School-based organizations (like the Mormons ), the work of Aleister Crowley (I found more references to 111 throughout his work), The Book of Knowledge: The Keys of Enoch , and the work of Solara & the Star-Borne. I saw physical similarities between the interlocking Triangles of the Golden Dawn, the Star of David, the Mason's Compass and Square, and the Star-Borne’s Zone of Overlap. I also became less concerned with the ownership issues surrounding 111. I began to realize that "the 111 experience" was not something that I owned. It was something that had been there all along. I had just tapped into it.
I was still confident, though, that I was one of the first people on Earth to connect with a particular number pattern through the modern digital age. As more and more electronic digital devices came into being, more and more people started to notice their own particular number pattern more often than other patterns. In 1975, I was one of the first people in the world to own a digital wristwatch - it came right off the assembly line! This was the old LED-type watch where you had to press a button to see the time.
This early connection with digital timepieces may have had something to do with my experience. But then again, my first actual branding by 111 was in 1965! What still remained unanswered, though, was how a particular affinity developed for one number pattern over another. And why did certain people make this connection and others did not? Through the modern digital age, many people now experienced their own particular flavor of "the 111 experience".
I spent time with the Hare Krishna out in West Virginia during the summer of 1996 at one of their Holy Temples. They were very interested in my study of 111 and of the ALL SEVEN concept. They were very hospitable to me during my visit. They really wanted me to join their temple and be a part of a special outreach group. I would have been working for the Swami that was the site's leader. I found literally dozens of Trinity references in their holy books. There were also a number of references to Seven Things throughout their literature. Although I did find their lifestyle interesting and was flattered by the treatment I received, I did not feel called to serve with them. They provided me with more insight into this mystery in general, and for that I was very grateful. They remained in contact with me for a period of time after I told them that I did not want to join them, but then stopped calling.
I finally connected with the foundation of my experience. In the late summer, my investigations of the Masons and The Golden Dawn led me to a common Root System that appeared to have fed different parts of each cosmology. It was the QABALA: the ancient science of revelation practiced in secret by the Hebrew Mystics of old.
The QABALA was actually what was being referenced in Crowley's "777" book that I had discovered in 1988. Throughout this experience, things have been revealed to me and connections have been made at just the right moment. Even though I was given glimpses of the QABALA back in 1988, I wasn't ready to begin my study of it until 1996. In "777" Crowley stated that the Hebrew Letter Aleph (A L P) was connected to 111. The correspondences for the Tree of Life related the letter Aleph to the first path on the Tree. This first path was also known as the "eleventh path". I saw the "Three Pillars" representation in the Tree of Life as well. It was quite reassuring to me that "the 111 experience" seemed to be connected to the QABALA. I knew for certain that my revelations concerning 111 had roots in other, more ancient systems.
1997 - Seeing More QABALISTIC
This was a year for continued study of the QABALA. I also continued to see many significant public references to One-One-One - in speeches given by the Dalai Lama, in the slogans for the Episcopal Church's Presiding Bishop's Fund for World Relief, and on the cover of the bulletin for my niece Rachel's baptism .
At the end of the summer, I moved from my life-long hometown in Sussex County, New Jersey to the Heart of the Heartland - Lawrence, Kansas . I came out here to be with my new significant other. We met in a cyberspace chatroom called The Magic Dream Machine. She initially came to know me by my chat name (which was ONE_1_ONE). We bonded almost instantly. In September, we began our wonderful New Life together right here in Lawrence.
I acquired a copy of "Sefer Yetzirah - The Book of Creation" from a local bookstore here in Lawrence. I learned that this was perhaps the most ancient of all the Qabalistic texts. It was reportedly written by Abraham thousands of years before Christ and seemed to have provided the foundation for almost every Western Mystery School tradition that ever was. Some of what I found during my first experience with the Book included the following:
There are "32 mystical paths of Wisdom" ;
The Universe was created "with Three Books, with text, with number, and with communication" ;
There are "22 Foundation Letters: Three Mothers, Seven Doubles, and Twelve Elementals" ;
"Twenty-Two foundation Letters: He placed them in a circle like a wall with 231 Gates" ;
Many, many statements about the Three Mothers (the Hebrew letters Aleph, Mem, and Shin);
Many more references to Seven (which, as we have noted, is 111 in binary);
"Three: Water From Breath." ;
"Seven: Three opposite Three and one is the rule deciding between them...";
"...One on Three, Three on Seven, Seven on Twelve, All are bound, one to another."
1998 - A Full Year in the Heartland
This was again a year for continued study of the QABALA, continued observation of the innumerable similarities present between every one of Earth's Mystical Traditions, and continued self-study of Chaos Theory. It was also my first full year living in the mid-west. I spent most of my 36+ years living in New Jersey (where there are nearly 1100 people per square mile). And yes, I did live in Sussex County (the rural, less crowded NW portion of that tiny state). But my commute always took me down into the congested, hellish, suburban wasteland areas of the state at least 5 days a week.
Being way out here IN THE MIDDLE of the entire North American continent (where there are only about 30 people per square mile) certainly does have its advantages. Far from what most people back east think might be some kind of boring mid-west "cow town", Lawrence (where I live) functions as a cultural Mecca of sorts for the entire state. I've told people that I don't live in KANSAS - I live in the hip, happening University Town of Lawrence. Lawrence is an anomaly of a town out here in the Heartland and it has functioned as a wonderful resting spot for me that has allowed my "111/mystical work" to move forward in many interesting directions. I continue to remain eternally grateful to my new partner for having been the catalyst that brought me here.
In September, I added a section to the beginning of the write-up that described how I happened to come upon the name J'lahn. Since I got asked that question quite frequently whenever anyone new read the write-up, I thought I would just add that "background" information right up front. I also happened to be making that update to the write-up at roughly the same time Flight 111 went down.
I did not know about the crash until sometime around noon the next day. Some of my friends back east informed me of the crash at the end of a conference call we were all on. They told me of the disaster and then added (rather ominously) "Guess what, Jim? It was Flight 111." And sure enough, it was Flight 111. So for the next several weeks quite a few people were contacting me and asking me how I felt about that. I said I felt really sad for the families and all the others that were involved with the tragedy.
But I also told them that I couldn't help it when these types of correspondences got linked to 111. Aleister Crowley once said (in the early 1900's) that 111 was "priceless" because of "its comment that the Unity [we seek] may be found in Thick Darkness and in Sudden Death." Perhaps Mr. Crowley had a premonition that Flight 111 would one day fall from the sky and sink to the darkest depths of the ocean suddenly killing everyone on board? Who knows. I first read those words in a town near Sedona, Arizona in July, 1988. And when I did, they frightened me. Was my experience with 111 tied to the fact that I would one day experience some kind of "sudden death" ?
My connection to 111 certainly did not seem to indicate that to me. I expect to continue encountering major life events and news stories that somehow get connected with 111. They have happened in the past and they will continue to happen in the future. For me personally though, this journey is still mostly undefined, raw, and real. And what happens outside of my own direct experience with 111 is entirely beyond my control.
During 1998, I attended a number of concerts in the Kansas City area. Prior to these shows starting, I would usually stand somewhere near the entrance to the venue with the ALL SEVEN sign (see Woodstock '94 section of the write-up). Many people found this very curious. And some others actually got angry that I was carrying the sign. They wanted me to tell them what it meant. I told them that each of the seven "objects" were "undefined - that they were merely placeholders - that they were but crudely drawn representations of some as yet undefined concept - that they were ALL SEVEN. " When it seemed like someone was actually interested, I told them of my "111 connection" (I gave them the URL to this site). I would also tell them how I felt that my "111 connection" had tied me into a direct experience with the QABALA. It was rather tough to do this because most people usually just think "what the heck is that guy talking about?" But it also was actually quite interesting and sometimes it really did provoke meaningful discussions about Mysticism that would not have otherwise occurred. After each time I did this, I would usually think to myself "Mission Accomplished."
As 1998 drew to a close, I was hoping that I would soon stumble upon a tie between my work with the QABALA and my work with Chaos Theory. This Grand Unification of the ROOT SYSTEM for all Eastern and Western Mystical tradition with the ROOT SYSTEM that describes, I believe, virtually ALL behavior on the physical plane continued to be my own, very personal, Holy Grail.
1999 - The Journey Continues and, somehow,
Begins to Change
Please click below to read each of the year's iterative updates:
January 11, 2000
Well, we finally made it. The Year 2000. Since I was in my teens, I always knew I would be 37 in the Year 2000. I think everyone, at one point or another, figured out just how old they would be in this magical year. I want to say right up front that the new year IS magical, but not because it's the New Millennium (cuz it's not) and not because it's the New Century (cuz it's not that either). It's magical because even though it's a nearly completely arbitrary designation, it is a milestone. It is a milestone that was celebrated by the entire planet - even by those who know the year as 5777766 (Jewish), 7508 (Byzantine), 4636 (Chinese), 1921 (Indian), and 1420 (Islamic). But one thing it most definitely is NOT is the New Millennium. Nope. Not yet. I asked my closest friends to tell me if it's what we call a "stretcher" for me to see anything interesting or special about the date the REAL New Millennium begins (the "Third" Millennium). Let's see... what's that date again? Oh yes, it's
Yes, that's it. 01-01-01. Yup. The Third Millennium begins on January 1, 2001. Quite a few people know about this and many more are just now starting to find out as we plow on into this magical new year (the media inspired mis-use of this term is finally [THANK GOD] starting to die down). If you're wondering exactly why this is true, you can read what the Royal Greenwich Observatory has to say. They pretty much have the final word on these types of things, so I tend to believe them.
But all this dating stuff is so arbitrary, so I try to stay balanced about the fact that the THIRD MILLENNIUM BEGINS ON 01-01-01. OK. I'm a little excited about it, I'll admit that. OF COURSE, I SEE THREE ONES IN THERE!!! And yes, maybe it's a stretcher, but it's a pretty cool stretcher.
I took a different approach with the yearly roll-up activity. I just clipped the updates and put them in as links that folks can click on. 1999 was a relatively good year for us. I changed jobs (within the same company) which has kept things on the work front active and interesting. And we rolled into our third (and perhaps final?) year out here in the Heartland. At some point, we just may decide to move back to Good Old Sussex County, New Jersey. We're very close with my family - my Mom and Dad are either in Florida or in the Poconos and my Brother and his family are down in Maryland. And my job can really be done from almost anywhere in the country (especially New Jersey). But... I have gotten so used to it out here - it's WAY less crowded than back east. We both really like that. So we'll see what happens.
Back on the Paranormal Front: I must confess that I made nearly ZERO progress during 1999 on my work with the so-called Grand Unification of the Qabala and Chaos Theory. I was just not pulled into that stuff like I was during 1998 and 1997. I sense that this past year was a transition year - a year when I took a breather, stopped or slowed down my OLD focus, and began to develop a focus on something NEW (not sure what). I do know that it is still my mission and sacred (!) duty to continue updating this write-up. I do still get mail from folks sharing their experiences - still mostly the "oh my God I'm not the only one" experience. I am also finding links to my story cropping up on other paranormal web sites.
I modified the entry pages for the site. I have put in a front page showing one of the earliest pictures I have of me with my folks. As you read above, you'll remember that I find the concept of ALL SEVEN very intriguing. I see the THREE rectangles in the middle of this representation as the Self, with each of the biological parents on either side. I see the TWO sets of TWO rectangles on either side of the THREE in the middle as the biological Grandparents of the Self. Of course ALL SEVEN fans out into hundreds of thousands of others who are all genetically linked to us. But somehow, I think there's something very special those first 6 immediate genetic relatives. Maybe it's because I had both sets of grandparents living until I was 15? Somehow, I feel that we forever travel through life in the middle with these THREE beings on either side - I actually liken it to what we saw in the Qabalistic text -
" Seven: Three opposite Three and one is the rule deciding between them...";
And when some of us make the decision to have our own children, we spin off a brand new group of 7.
Whatever any of this all means, I sense that my entire experience with 111 is changing. It's still real, it's just that I may be ready to someday soon (perhaps when we enter the REAL New Millennium?) stop relaying all these details. Or the way I relay theses details will change somehow. The April 21st update will come out a little early this year - because of Leap Year, April 200th is the 111th day of the year. Get your ADOBE ACROBAT software before then folks because I'm going to be making old "hard copy" versions of "the 111 experience" available to you all as 'pdf' files - including the very first hand typed version! NOW WON'T THAT BE SPECIAL!
Enjoy the next 3 months. Feel free to write me if you want to share your own experiences or if you have feedback on mine.
April 20, 2000
Since this is a leap year, the 111th day of the year falls on 4/20. And, unfortunately, it is another facet of "the 111 experience" that ties into something, well, not so cool. Something evil, actually. Today, the 111th day of the year 2000, is the 1st anniversary of the Columbine Massacre. Those shots that rang out at 11:19 on that fateful day last year changed so many lives - forever. The Demons (judgment call on my part) that made this happen chose 4/20 for a very specific reason (or at least that is one of the theories). You see, 4/20 is Adolph Hitler's birthday. And the really unusual fact about this, the day of the 1st anniversary of the Columbine Massacre, is that it would have been Adolph Hitler's 111th birthday. That is obscure, but true. As with any dark correspondence to 111 (Crowley, Flight 111), I wish these things were not true. But they are. Like I have said in previous versions of the write-up, I do not have control over what gets linked into 111. So sometimes I have to just roll with the punches, acknowledge the unsavory events, and move on. That's what I'll be doing with this year's rather negative 4/20 correspondences.
Over the past few months I have had some particularly disturbing e-mail and message-board replies from people telling me that my association with 111 is absolutely, positively, demonic. These folks believe that I am somehow, under the influences of EVIL DEMONS, possessed by 111. They see 111 as just a bit too close to '666'. They see 111 as something that distracts me and takes me away from a (Christian) life with God. It is true that I am not a Christian. But I would beg to differ with anyone who thinks that it is because of 111 .
I am a Searcher and a Scientist. I am one who is in the process of discovering Truth. I always will be. I accept the mysteries that surround me and try to remain balanced as to the "meaning of it all". I remind people who ascribe 111 to evil that the binary number 111 is equivalent to the number 7 in decimal. One of the "Most Holy" numbers on the planet is directly linked into 111. I also remind them that 111 seems to me to be a numeric code for some sort of Trinity - why not call it a miraculous sign of the Christian "Father, Son, and Holy Ghost"? Why not? I guess all I try to say to these folks is this - read the WHOLE write-up, examine my experience, and draw your own conclusions. I've already stopped responding to a few folks who accuse me of having some kind of Satanic connection. It just simply is not true. When it comes to these matters, I am to be seen as a Free Agent, an Anomaly that defies Good/Evil categorization. That is my role. And that is the role I will continue to operate in.
This is also the update where I promised to present some ancient versions of "the 111 experience" for your viewing pleasure. You'll need an Adobe Acrobat reader to view them. When you look at them, you'll see that certain areas are "blacked out" with magic marker. This is because I used a person's name, address, my company's name, or some other facet of the tale that, at this point, needs to remain unknown. Rest assured, this is just to protect me legally. Anyway, I have included the following:
The very first typed version of "the 111 experience" complete with hand-written corrections. This was typed on a Cannon Typestar 5 portable typewriter in the late 80's. Click HERE to view.
The very first version of the write-up written on a computer running on Windows. My laptop was running Windows 3.1 when this was created (early 90's). Click HERE to view.
Miscellaneous update details since 1992 that have now been eliminated from the present-day version of the write-up. Click HERE , HERE , and HERE to view (I split it up into three parts to make the download into your Acrobat Reader quicker).
Some may wonder why I am doing this. If these are really old, discarded versions, why not leave them in the past where they belong? Well, for one thing, it is to add an additional layer of historic detail to show folks how the experience has progressed over the years. You will see that I, too, was fascinated by every single little occurrence of 111 that popped up into my face. I really understand why, for some of you who are just beginning this experience, every occurrence of your special number pattern is something that BLOWS YOU AWAY. I remember what that was like, I really do. But at this point, as you have seen in previous updates, it really takes a HUGE, completely OBSCURE event to catch my interest. It's not that strange things relating to number patterns don't happen, it's just that they happen all the time. They happen with such regularity that they no longer influence me the way they used to.
Synchronistic events abound. They all have messages attached. At this point, I filter out quite a bit - things that normal people interested in the paranormal (is that an oxy-moron?) would be BLOWN AWAY by. It comes with the territory. This number pattern business has been happening to me for SO LONG at this point. As I also suggested in previous updates, my experience with 111 is changing. It is quite possibly something that I will simply let go of - SOON.
It doesn't mean that I won't look back fondly on it, it doesn't mean that I won't continue to be a clearinghouse for information about this experience, and it doesn't mean that my experience will have been invalidated. It just means that it will change. I won't know how it will change until it changes. This is just one of those things that I sense is true - I do not have any hard evidence for what the change will look like or exactly when it will occur. But it's coming.
Whatever happens, enjoy the next bunch of months between now and 11-1. A side note: I will be removing the 5-5-2000 link from the front page of the site on 5-6. It's my assumption that 5-5 will come and go like any other May 5th - this will enrage some and will be inconsequential to others. My continuing advice about ALL this stuff - stay real, stay undefined, wait it out - the Truth around these experiences iss coming. Soon. You'll know it when it happens. Stay cool.
November 1, 2000 - The Final Update
I got an e-mail from someone the other day talking about "the 555". What we are being told is that many folks ("Lightworker" type folks) around the globe are now connecting with this "new" Number Pattern - 555. It's coming up in all the usual places (odometers, prices, clocks, "randomly generated" ID numbers, etc.). And yes, it's already one of the numbers you'll find in my well documented Number Pattern list:
11/111/x11/1111, 112, 22/222, 3/33/333, 316, 37, 44/44x/444, 47/x47, 53, 55/555, 666, 69, 7/77/777, 13/42, 23/32, 88/888, 1234, and 1212.
It's great that these folks are now getting all jazzed over 555. It really is. I wish them All The Best as they begin their search to ascribe meaning to this "new" Pattern. I met someone over 10 years ago who was jazzed by 555. That's how it ended up on my list. Personally, I have a more clinical approach to "the 555". I guess I just see it as another Case in my very large Case File. I think that maybe since I have been doing this number pattern business longer than nearly anyone else on Earth, I find myself less and less moved by the phenomenon itself. To me, the business of "connecting" with Special Number Patterns seems OLD, OUTDATED, and in need of some kind of NEW SPARK. It's not that my experience with 111 didn't connect me with tens of thousands of interesting people and hundreds (perhaps thousands) of interesting topics and movements. On the contrary, my experience with 111 really became a permanent, defining characteristic of my Self, my essence. I'm actually very grateful for the role that was dumped in my lap some three decades ago.
Since the following quote is buried on one of the above links (November '99), I'll repeat it again right here since it seems appropriate at this time:
It has been a REALLY long time since the act of simply seeing the number "111" really meant anything to me (at all).
Don't get me wrong - I still think 111 is cool. WAY COOL. The fact that it's the binary representation of SEVEN is VERY COOL. The fact that it uniquely symbolizes All Trinities in a way that dazzles us with its simplicity is EVEN COOLER. It's not just Unity; it's Tri-unity - an encoded symbol for nearly ANY Trinity.. I recognize the fact that the 1 means "ON" in the binary language of computers. So I see how 111 is very similar to ON-ON-ON (One-One-One? Get it?). The fact that we see Trinities and SEVEN cropping up across the Qabala , Eastern and Western Mystical Traditions, and the mainline Religious persuasions all across the globe is undeniable. And I still think all that stuff is rather interesting. But what does it all really mean? That's the REAL question and that's what folks have been trying to get me to comment on and commit to since the Fall of 1980. That's over 20 years. That's quite a long time.
If you connect to a particular number pattern (and it's probably one of the ones listed above) I want you to stop and think about it for a minute. Where did it come from? Who mentioned it to you first? Did you simply start noticing it without anyone prompting you? For the vast majority of folks connecting to a pattern, they were told about the pattern or they read something about it first BEFORE they started "connecting". That realization should hold some kind of a key for you. Give it some thought.
When I first started seeing 111 all over the place in 1980, not a soul had told me about it. That fall (Fall, 1980), I told hundreds of people about 111 and then they started seeing not just 111 but 11:11 as well. Does that mean I might have started a bunch of people seeing 11:11? Let's think about that. This occurred in the densely populated region of NJ right across the Hudson from New York City. Some of the earliest reported 11:11 sightings I have come across are from Long Island, NY. I went to school with several people from Long Island. Is it possible that I actually launched this phenomenon in 1980 from the densely populated NYC metropolitan area? Is it possible that it then spread like Wild Fire from that very location (and SO ON and SO ON and SO ON)? It's absolutely possible! "11:11 - Make a Wish" --- ever heard of that? If you have, do you know anyone that was saying this prior to the early 80's? I believe this phrase originated on Long Island somewhere between 1980 and 1985. So what's the point? By this time, if you have any doubts at all that my experience with 111 and 11:11 predates nearly everyone else's on Earth (yes, the entire planet), you either haven't been paying attention or you're in some strange form of denial. It's not like I'm bragging. I'm simply stating fact.
So, after "connecting" with 111 for so many years and covering it from so many different angles, I believe I am moving on. I have reached a conclusion:
I believe that "Connecting with a Special Number Pattern" has a definite, pre-determined life cycle. I'm going to put it at anywhere from 10-35 years. After that life cycle has concluded, the special pattern has outlived its usefulness and is either discarded or it is changed into something else. It's as simple as that.
With 20 years of active sightings and a 35 year connection to 111 and 11:11, I've absolutely reached that point. The life cycle, for me, of 111 (and 11:11 in its present form) has concluded. Does that mean I'll now look back on this experience and say "Oh My God, what a colossal waste of time!" ??? No, it doesn't mean that at all. It means that it is time to move on into a New Role and a New Way of looking at my particular good ol' pattern. I think this is a point that each of you will reach with your pattern. It's just that you haven't gotten there yet. But you'll know it when you do. When it happens, don't be embarrassed, just let it go. If you know someone who "connects" and they have been telling you about their special pattern for years now and you have been saying "well, gee, that's nice" but have been mostly scratching your head over the whole thing, give them time. It will expire. I don't usually quote much from anyone else in this web site, but even our friend Solara knows that eventually "the 11:11" will "transfer" and "transform" into something else.
So, where does that leave this website? Well, I'll still be indexed and linked for number patterns and 111 and 11:11 so I will still get folks e-mailing me wanting answers and/or just wanting to share their experience. I'll continue to reply to as many of those e-mails as possible. But the website will change to include more of an overview of ALL the patterns and it will also include my commentary on the groups or individuals who "claim" the pattern. This site will become more of what I had always said it would be in the first place - a clearing house for this type of information. I'll also be expanding the site to include a section on non-number-pattern related mysticism.
In closing, please remember what happens in January. I'll just cut and paste my quote from above -
"I asked my closest friends to tell me if it's what we call a 'stretcher' for me to see anything interesting or special about the date the REAL New Millennium begins (the 'Third' Millennium). Let's see... what's that date again? Oh yes, it's
Yes, that's it. 01-01-01. Yup. The Third Millennium begins on January 1, 2001 ."
My REAL journey with the 111 experience, while it will always remain near and dear to my heart, has concluded. The write-up is now considered "archived in place". There will be no further updates.